Confusion ....

Man
I got a call yesterday. It was a voice I couldn't place. When the call came through I was standing outside with the mechanic who had dropped by to inspect my car. I said 'sorry who is this?' he replied 'what do you mean who is this ...you mean you don't know my voice?' Gosh how I hate it when people do that. But at that moment I didn’t have time to guess ...the mechanic was standing right in front of me, so I said I'd call him in 5 minutes. I called it was THE EX ...when I say THE EX ...I mean the significant EX. I was in love with him, he was in love with me, life happened and it didn't work out (Ill save the jist for another day). We stayed friends (we were always best friends whilst we dated) but after we split up I had to distance myself, mostly because it was too hurtful. He is one of the reasons why I'm single today ...I mean 5 years later and still no one else comes close.

We speak a little.

The Ex: I really should come and visit you ...I have never been to {Unmodern's location}
Unmodern: (I feel myself panicking but I say) really
The Ex: Except if I'm not welcome...
Unmodern: You are always welcome; just let me know when you want to come
(In my head I'm thinking, why do you want to come see me? what do you wnat now?)

Now the last time I saw The Ex was 3 years ago. It was the same type of call. The day before he arrived I came home to a dozen white roses, some champagne, and a box of Thornton’s truffles. He's always been romantic. He spoke about being confused and not being sure if he was doing the right thing ...he said he didn’t want to burden me with the details, but he needed to see me one last time. A month later he called and invited me to his wedding. I wished him well but did not attend.

Now out of the blue he wants to visit and I'm letting him ...boyyyy I'm confused

Car
I have a car, but I don’t drive it because I can’t be arsed. I take a taxi or walk pretty much every where. So my car has been sitting in my drive for the past year. 6 months ago I forgot I even had a car and accordingly I stopped going to warm it up and the battery went flat, and now it needs its MOT done. The mechanic came yesterday and jump started it apparently I need to change all 4 tyres and it should pass its MOT the only problem is the tyres which are worn down.

The mechanic said 'Do you want part one tyres' I say 'it depends on the cost' he says they cost around £25 each. I'm like £100 for all 4 tyres?? Sounds good!!! (Last time I bought a tyre I called the AA and it cost me £65 for 1 tyre.

Any way the mechanic leaves and I start to wonder what 'Part one' tyre means. So I call my friend who knows everything about these things and he laughs and says 'Part one means second hand'

Any way I like the price of second hand tyres but I don't know if they will be safe or if they will last in the long run ...I'm confused

Job
I was offered a new job in a different city. It should be a 'No brainier’. It pays 50% more than I earn now, it’s in a city where I have lots of friends, and my prospective employers seem really nice and really want me on board.

But I’ve been too chicken to resign. I’ve been sitting on the offer for 4 weeks now. And when they started pushing for my reference I told them I hadn’t resigned yet as the person I wanted to tell first was on holiday.

I love my current job. Yes I’ve had a few patchy bits recently (see http://totallyunmodern.blogspot.com/2008/02/miss-not-so-perfect.html ) but all in all they have been very fair to me. I'm worried out leaving. I can’t believe I can’t resign. I thought I really wanted to make a move but it’s proving hard

I’ve told myself I have to resign tomorrow ...but that what I said on Friday and I had the resignation letter burning a hole in my purse all day on Friday but didn’t actually resign ...I'm confused ...